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[mangacide]

I think a lot of my life is spent up with the need to know that someone somewhere is proud of me. Or they they are glad that they met me.
I'd like to say, that it was my fathers drug addiction, or the abuse, or the fact that he died when I was 13, that made me this way, but I'm not at all sure thats what it is, because I've never held any ill-feelings towards him about any of that. I hated him while he was alive, but after he died, my hate just seems to have died with him.
I did feel extremely invisible durring highschool though. And worse then that, I asked one of my friends once what he thought of me, and he told me "You're just there". Another friend told me my drawing had no life or soul to them.
These things trouble me. They probably shouldn't, but they do. No matter how I may feel about myself, or my own work, I'm still hurt when people that I think I'm close to give me a response that makes me think they wouldn't shed a tear if I died the next day in some freak accident.
Anyroad, enough of that.
On to more interesting people and things.

First on the list,
Smam! remember that whole userinfo-table-thing you told me about ages ago? Well, I finally got aruond to trying it! It worked pretty good, but I need to know how to change the colors and stuff like that now! Maybe even add a border? I don't know if I can do that but it'd sure be cool ^.^

Next is Rune Midgard.
I need some smart people to help me write good rules for this rp. I've been working on it with llesnouh for months now, but we haven't done the rules yet. So please, friends on my lj, lend me your brains! I want to make this rp reaaallllyyyy good.

Also, in case anyone's missed it;

Rumic World!!

Random AU!!

They'll be great if people will only come and play there ^.^|| I need to make some adds, but I'm no good at that either v.v||
It's amazing how many rps I can have fail and I just keep plugging away at it, nii? ^.^ Better check them out now, or next entry I'll make the link text 50 feet tall XDD
Anyway, thanks to everyone who reads this thing. I know I'm a spoiled brat, and it means so much to me that you all put up with me anyway ^.^||
Be safe everyone.




!Jett

Oh yeah, before I forget....





This is my 19 year old version of Kagome, from the Rumiko Takahashi Manga/anime; Inu-Yasha ^.^ Hooray for drawing Older versions of characters!!
And more importantly...

FIRST DRAWING OF 2007!!! ^__________________^

Comments

[contingoangelus.livejournal.com]

I'd care if you died in a freak accident. ;-; *holds* Don't leave me!

lawl, a 50' tall entry? Mmmm... *bobs off to help advertise*

[mangacide.livejournal.com]

^___________^ Yes! Then people will have to pay attention XDDD

[contingoangelus.livejournal.com]

It's so true! XDD You totally should *nodnod*

[contingoangelus.livejournal.com]

Nya, forgot to comment and say that I love her hair! And face. It's a reeeally nice picture :D You should try drawing Kagome and her little brother with the same aspect. >_>

[mangacide.livejournal.com]

14 year old Sota nii? :D (assuming he was 10 during the series x.x) I could do that when I get paper again XD

[contingoangelus.livejournal.com]

Yaaa! With 19-year-old Kagome, of course. They were awesome siblings together x3

[mangacide.livejournal.com]

nii ni ^.^